How Fear Of Fornication Turned Me To Chronic Masturbator, Man Shares His Story

I am actually not narrating this story to attracts sympathy or anything of the sort,I just want someone somewhere to learn from my mistakes.

Before I begin, I would like to appeal to our English professors here to kindly ignore my errors.

I am not an artist of any sort, so I don’t have the creative spark to perfectly reinterpret my experience into a reimagined form in an English format.

I was born into a Christian home, very God-fearing family….

Countless numbers of time we were told about how sexual immorality would make us lose God’s favor…

By nature I was one (not any more) who considers God’s views on anything before embarking on it..

So these teachings both from my dad who was an elder in the church and the Bible teaching from the church painted in my subconscious mind an unpleasant picture of how things would turn so badly in the future if I lose God’s favor as a result of formication.

But It was not easy as nature kept calling lol, I guess u know what I mean.

One day,I was offered one Christian book that throws some light on masturbation.

According to the book masturbation is less of a sin than fornication, so I capitalize on that to start a journey I’m never imaging would be detrimental to my health and by extension ruin my life.

Yeah masturbation is not sinful I said to myself, so I have got a foundation to build on. I would masturbate twice or more daily for so so many years.

Few years into this habit I started noticing some health challenges, from constipation to back pain, to eye problem, to being so Moody and regretful each time I finished the act, Etc…

One day after i just finished the act somewhere around 2008, I became so moody like I have never experienced before.

My dick shrank, I lost my appetite and i was so empty inside me..

It was as if an organ was taken away from me. I could sincerely feel the emptiness in my heart..

My happiness, my joy, my feelings all disappeared at that moment.

Immediately I rushed to my elder sister who in turn sent me to a family friend (lab scientist) for diagnosis..

The moment I narrated what I was experiencing then he said”you’re suffering from DEPRESSION”, that was the first time I heard that word “DEPRESSION ” ..

He encouraged me to visit a psychiatric hospital. mehn that was too difficult, people were going to think I am running mad I said to myself , so I never visited, though I went for an alternative anyway watch never worked for me..

Since then my life has been a complete mess.

I am in my early 30s, I have got no degree despite my love for education before I got depressed…

Recently I bought some courses online on computer programming, but I don’t have the urge or concentration to seat and watch the entire duration of the video.

The above is just the highlight of my predicament, there are more not captured in this write-up.

If you are a masturbator, please kindly look for alternative means of satisfying your sexual urge.

I don’t wish my enemy experience depression

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